It's been a while since my last post and I apologize for that. National Novel Writing Month got the best of me during the month of November and when I mean the best, I mean the best. I was determined to write 50,000 words this year. Very determined.
Why? Well, I lost four years in a row. I didn't make 50,000 words. I wrote. And I have many, many started stories. But none of them were finished.
This year? I hit 50,000! YAY!!! But it wasn't easy. It hasn't been for the past 5 years because something always happens. Within the past 5 years someone, or a pet(s), has died. Yup. Every November and that has always made me stop.
November used to be my Uncle's favorite holiday. He liked it because it wasn't ridden with commercialism. And even though this may sound bias because I loved my Uncle John greatly, God rest his soul, I like Thanksgiving for the same reason.
But, November tends to be the time that people leave this plane. Maybe because they hate the holidays as much as I do due to retail LOL!
Now, forgive me because I know that spirituality is a sensitive subject. And I'm not sure how you all feel. I'm not you. But I know how I feel, and it's from years of study of all beliefs, including atheism.
That may surprise some of you because you have read how I feel. My faithful readers know that my belief is FAR from atheism. But that doesn't mean that I don't understand it. I have a background study in ALL beliefs.
I did that so I could remain sensitive to everyone I come across. I felt it was the only way I could understand people, and frankly speaking, I also felt it was the only way I could walk the way Jesus truly did. He had to learn the way of his people to talk about the love of God. So that's why I went and studied every religion. I needed to learn what people thought. And I learned that no matter what we believe, we ALL love. That's that.
So if you feel I offend you in my beliefs, please understand that I already know your own and I will not debate them here in a banter. BUT I respect and love you for you. So please feel free to comment as long as you understand that your comments need to be negative free.
However, having said all of that, my Aunt died about a week before NaNo finished. I know that she wanted to leave here. She didn't want to be sick or be put on a feeding tube. That wasn't her style. She was a vivacious woman who celebrated life every chance she got, so I can see why she'd want to check out of a body that wanted to quit.
My emotions last week were raw. They still are, even though my Aunt has been sick for a while. Yet, even though it happened and I felt grief, just like I did for the past 4 years, I decided to do something I had never done before in my life. I asked for help.
Yup. I enlisted the help of all of my writer friends to give me some positive encouragement to help me finish NaNo. And you know what? It helped! So much so that I've carried it into my editing stage for this month!
I'll have you know that this story's origin started in about 2008, when I first had a thought to write it. I didn't "win" then. I barely scratched the surface. But that has all changed now, and I can't thank my writer friends, as well as, my face-time friends, enough for the positive push.
So my fibro friends, I have to ask you this... The next time you have something important going on in your life, something that literally could mean the life or death of your essence, please, please, please, enlist the help of your friends to encourage you to go on. It could mean the world to you. And I hope you know that your friend list includes me!
Stay fabulous my friends!
Love and friendship,