Today's news story about Caylee Anthony was not a very happy ending for the people I know that watched it. I must admit that I did not because I couldn't stomach the news story to begin with. I have two daughters myself and I could never picture my life without them. I'm not one to ever accuse anyone of anything, especially as a journalist, I have a code of conduct I uphold. It's not my job to speculate, however, I do believe that justice is always served. God sees to that and Caylee's killer will be exposed with the justice that is deserving for that little girl.
Today, for me at least, was filled with a lot of sadness. I've had a lot in my own life to deal with when it comes to loss as of late. I try hard not to dwell on the negative, so let's focus on the positive and look at something to be grateful for. I am grateful for friends when it comes to my Fibro issues.
Having friends that are there for you when you are in a flare is a Godsend. I have actually lost count when it comes to the times that my friends-- either through the magic of the internet or in person-- have been there for me during a flare.
Most of the time I can feel a flare coming on, but there are always those times when I least expect it and that's where my friends have stepped in. They should know, or at least I hope they do, that I'm VERY appreciative of them.
I can remember a time where I awoke from a deep sleep in a sweat. I felt dizzy and I couldn't see well. The best way to describe it is that I was experiencing tunnel vision. My skin was itchy from the inside and I had this looming notion that everyone was out to get me.
I didn't know it at the time but what I was experiencing was a panic attack. I got through it by making a simple late night phone call to a VERY understanding friend named Emily. She was great. She asked a series of questions and then came to the conclusion that I was having a Panic/Anxiety attack and that I needed to do some deep breathing exercises. I got through the night with her and I will never forget it. Thanks Emily!
Another friend of mine helped me when I was newly diagnosed. She sat there and listened to all of my banter about the disease. She heard a few of the why me statements and she even did a few Reiki sessions for me. Dana was there for me a lot and I can't even begin to form words for that thank you.
Karen and Michelle are two other friends that have been there during my dark times and I'm pretty sure that neither of them know just how much their little statements have made such a big impact on my healing.
There are some people that just pop into your life that say something profound for your life circumstances and bingo-- life becomes clear. Michelle or Michy as she likes to be called is one of those people. She tends to say things that I've always believed but never acted upon. I look to her for guidance in a way that is different from all of my other friends because she is someone I've never met face to face, or even had the pleasure of talking to one the phone. She's an internet buddy and she may see herself as only that but I know better. There are just some people in life that can exude their kindness no matter how small because it's just in their nature to do so. Sorry Michy, I don't want to sound weird or anything, but it is what is.
Then there are some friends that you held dear that you never wanted to let go and then due to life, they slipped through your fingers. You think about them often, even hope they got what they wanted, but never do you think that you will ever see them again, until you do. Facebook has it's perks and finding lost friends is one of them.
I met Karen at 14 and lost touch with her towards the end of college. It was just one of those things. But thanks to the reconnection, I'm viewing Fibro through a new set of eyes again. She sees things that I'm missing. For instance, she made the comment "I think you do too much. Let Brittanny and Scott help a little more." I wouldn't have seen that potential flare because I'm too much in the middle of my life to compensate at the moment.
We all have some true friends that we look to every so often. Just make sure, especially today, that they know how much you appreciate them.
Love and friendship,